Hey my people. Its been months since I last posted. It doesn’t mean I stopped writing. Am still here to share with you and to learn from you as well. Before I get started I really want to appreciate those of you who went out of their way to enquire about why I haven’t written in a while. I must say I have been encouraged to know that I have people who genuinely look forward to my work. I really appreciate you guys so much.
So today is my birthday and I will take this chance to empty my heart and share one of the things I have learnt in my previous year. This is going to take a while so brace yourself. I may not have it all figured out but I would want you to pick what is relevant for you and run with it.
What would you do if you woke up one morning and find that you lost all or one thing that you have held dearly. It could be your best friend, a parent, your boyfriend or girlfriend, your job, something that means so much to you. What is the first thing you do, think or feel. Am sure most of us have a reaction to this. Mostly negative reactions. We become bitter, we cry, we vent. What changes after we have reacted? Do we get back what we’ve lost.
You’ve got to know that we all embrace pain differently. We all have our own ways of dealing with pain and hurts. The most common is withdrawing from people. The aspect of “I need space to clear my head”. Am sure you are familiar with this. This year I experienced quite a big loss. One I didn’t see coming, and the first thing I did was build a wall and totally shut every one else out.
I had people around me telling me that I am strong, I will handle it. But I wasn’t able to. I chose to close myself in and refuse to deal with the pain. Now I realize that healing doesn’t happen with time. Healing is a process God Himself walks you through. The only thing time does is that it makes u learn how to live with the pain. It doesn’t heal you.
Loss is painful. Loss is hard to deal with. Building walls and refusing to allow yourself the opportunity to heal is however not the answer. The best thing to do is accept that you are hurting and begin to open yourself up for healing. I wish I did some things differently but since I realized this I have began my healing process. Sooner or later I will be a lady with a healthy heart. And so on my birthday I wish myself a spontaneous and exciting time in my healing period. I wish to rediscover me and keep at loving myself even at my flaws.
I would have loved for my dad to be around and throw me some humongous birthday wish but this won’t stop me from enjoying my day. Dad you are missed.
I say to myself today I am strong, I am beautiful, I am loved, I am the best thing that has ever happened to the world. I will keep pressing, I won’t give up and I will prove to the world that God did a perfect job allowing me into the world on a day like this.
I want to appreciate all the people who have been with me through this. You guys mean the world to me. I totally appreciate your friendship. Cheers to many more. God bless.
Thanks guys for reading. I hope you were encouraged even just a little. Make the right decisions. Do not wait to learn from experience. Be deliberate about choosing what is right for you. Even if it doesn’t make sense to everyone else. Do you. Happy Birthday to me.